Day 133 — Monday, July 27, 2020 or I have to attend a Zoom meeting at 8 p.m. tonight

Last week I joined my yoga studio’s 40-day workshop based on the teachings of a famous yoga instructor. Today is Day 1 of the program. I’m still working on my homework, but I did do the 20 minute yoga practice and the 5 minute meditation this morning all before I had to “show up” for work at 8:30.

And I am thinking that’s pretty darn good for Day 1. I did most of the reading over the weekend, but I’m still going through the Week 1 section. I figure this whole week is, in fact, Week 1, so if I am still trudging through it on Thursday, it’s really still week 1. I’m sure that’s not what the instructor had in mind, but sometimes you just need to get done what you can, right?

But what I am really worried about is this evening’s meeting with the group. Since we’re in the middle of a pandemic, we’ll be using my old friend Zoom instead of meeting in person at the studio. And that’s fine, but this will be my third Zoom meeting today and I know that I have another one tomorrow. And this 45 minute Zoom meeting isn’t until 8 p.m., which is smack in the middle of our dinner time. At that point in my day, I’m going to be cranky, hungry and annoyed that I am still sitting at my computer. I know the last thing that I will want to do is share my feelings about the 40 day revolution program with a bunch of folks that I don’t know.

And here’s my other problem — can I show up to this meeting with a beer or would that be frowned upon?? The program is about creating a daily yoga and meditation practice and eating cleanly, but it doesn’t really mention anything about alcohol… OK, I’m sure that it’s understood that alcohol isn’t the “cleanest” choice I could be making, but please — this meeting is at 8 p.m. on a Monday after I just spent all day logged into my computer dealing with work problems. I deserve to relax with a beer in my own home. Maybe I’ll pour it into a coffee cup so no one can tell what I am drinking…

And that statement is why I probably won’t survive all 40 days of the program. It’s only day 1 and I’m thinking about pouring beer into a coffee cup to get through the first session…